i know i can't control you
i know you tried so hard to
be all that i hoped you would be
i know they made you suffer
and cast you out to wonder
but god knows where should i be

i don't know who you are

although [bad word] to need you
i stay away from all who
see what i really can be
i lied so they won't harm you
with words that [bad word] and scar you
but what, what could i ever be?