Yearning of my mind
Engenders these suffering.
In four walls stored my despair,
My being, my fear.

Yes, I'm scared. Scared meaning of what was lost in the cycle 
Beyond these walls,
Beyond my space - 
- in the flow of worldly desires. 

..And choking the memories, I can see how in wilderness of sin
The human race
Writhe and squeals,
But [bad word] yourself again 
On bloody Calvary delusions, inventing whole worlds, full of sense.
And I once wandered through them, among the broken phantoms , who look only inward.
I want you to know what
Here enacted absurd show.
I beg you understand what
Must adopt this strange game,
Other way psychic decay 
Will [bad word] the only fate.
So submerge yourself in this abyss of empirical your dreams. Beyond retrieve.. 
Escaping from reality
Trapped in your dreams
Inventing absurd sense of all
Again and again