What now

Что теперь?
I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat 
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weak 
The days I'm stronger, now what, so I say 
That's something's missing 

Whatever it is, it feels like 
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror 
Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me 
And I just wanna scream 

What now? I just can't figure it out 
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out 
What now? Woah, what now? 

I found the one, he changed my life 
But was it me that changed 
And he just happened [bad word] at the right time 
I'm supposed to be in love 
But I'm not mugging 

Whatever it is, it feels like 
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror 
Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me 
And I just wanna scream 

What now? I just can't figure it out 
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out 
What now? Please tell me 
What now? 

There's no one to call cause 
I'm just playing games with them all 
The more I swear I'm happy, 
The more that I'm feeling alone 
Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions 
I can't even get the emotions [bad word] out 
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout 

What now? I just can't figure it out 
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out 
What now? Somebody tell me 
What now? 

I don't know where to go 
I don't know what to feel 
I don't know how to cry 
I don't know ow ow why 

So what now?