don't wait up for me
i can't think straight
this time please don't freeze
 [bad word] from focus til i can't see

why am i the one
resenting everyone i love
don't wanna fake another smile
don't ever want to see you move on

 [bad word] 
why is it everything is all the same
even through all the fame
i stand beside myself inside of a joke
even when i admit to take the blame
and tarnish my own name
the guilt inside me causes myself to choke

all these dreams in me
achieved but still i don't [bad word] 
all alone somehow
this time there's nothing stopping me now
i'll reach my arms outside the windows
catching any breath i can
i'll need the strength to lie about
my perfect promised land
these words embodying them all
as herds of dolls before the fall
caked up in makeup
tracing circles in the sky until i call
 [bad word] to my senses
losing all i never had
i'm burning each and every photograph
to keep from looking bad
saving faces i've forgotten
save my own face, no exception
frame them safely, fake a smile
and say goodbye to my reflection