nerden bileceksiniz? / how will you know?

ustum basim toz icinde
i have been covered in dust head to toe

onum arkam pus icinde
my face and back have been covered by fog

sakallarim pas icinde
my beards have been covered [bad word] 

siz benim nasil yandigimi ,nerden bileceksiniz
how will you know how i have been burning?

bir fidandim devrildim
i was a young tree, i have been falling down,

firtinaydim [bad word] 
i was a tempest , i ve been settled down

 [bad word] cok [bad word] 
i have been tired , very tired

siz benim neler cektigimi ,nerden bileceksiniz
how will you know what i have been going [bad word] 

tas duvarlar yikip geldim
i have been arrived by destroying the concrete walls

demirleri sokup geldim
i have been arrived by ripping off the steals

hayatimi yikip geldim
i have been arrived by destroying my life

siz benim neden kactigimi , nerden bileceksiniz
how will you know what i ve [bad word] away from?

gokte yildiz soner simdi
in the skies, stars have been fading now

annem beni arar simdi
my mom has been calling me now

sevdigim var, kanar simdi
i have a lover , has been suffering now

siz benim niye ictigimi,nerden bileceksiniz
how will you know what i have been drinking for?

bir pinardim kan oldum
i was a fountain, i have turn out to be blood

yol kenari han oldum
i have beome a road house

yanildim ah ziyan oldum
i made a mistake i have been gone to wasted

siz benim neden sustugumu,nerden bileceksiniz
how will you know why i have been in silence ?

ben ardimda yas biraktim
i ve left crying eyes behind me

aglayan bir es biraktim
i ve left a crying wife

sol yanimi bos biraktim hey
i ve left my left side dead

siz benim kime kustugumu ,nerden bileceksiniz
how will you know who I have been sulking to?