I dunno what I was thinking
Leaving my child behind
Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind

With all this anger, guilt and [bad word] to haunt me forever
I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river

Is this revenge I am seeking
Or seeking someone to avenge me
Stuck in my own paradox I wanna set myself free

Maybe I should chase and find
Before they'll try to stop it
It won't be long before I'll [bad word] a puppet
 [bad word] 
It's been so long
Since I last have seen my son
Lost to this monster
To the man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone
I've been singing this stupid song
So I could ponder
The sanity of your mother

[Verse 2]
I wish I lived in the present
With the gift of my past mistakes
But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes

Your sweet little eyes, your little smile
Is all I remember
Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper

Justification is killing me
But killing isn't justified
What happened to my son, I'm terrified

It lingers in my mind and the thought keeps getting bigger
I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I've been there