[bad word] flatsounds

"when you were a child on the farm 
you saw him pin her by the weight of his arms 
so she left in the night when you were in bed 
and took your [bad word] when she left 

you're already hurt 
im scared that if you put 
your [bad word] in me i'll make it worse 
i'll hurt you 

i picked a flower from the stem 
and watched it die in my hands 
and i screamed, "oh my god 
i did it again, im destroying innocence 

so i can't stay 
my heart's too weak to think 
about the way you use to say 
i miss you"