[bad word] flatsounds

"summer time was not a lie 
but just a feeling that we got 
and i know you feel alone, too 
but this heat is not for us 

i know i wanted to go 
into the valley where it snows 
but i realized, this place is too cold to live my life 

im sorry, sorry i couldn't go 
on with these lies while im kissing your nose 
i wasn't ready, i should have known 
that this would happen 
lets stop these words, they're turning cold 
lets treat this goodbye like a simple hello 
you're still so young, you have room to grow 
into something amazing 

you'll sleep tight, i know this feels right 
but theres something you should understand 
when the leaves change, after three days 
you wont remember who i am 

im not calling you out 
its just you sound like her 
when you open your mouth 
and i cant live with the chance 
that this feelings [bad word] back 
so no, you're not what i need 
the words you say 
they're the orange in the trees 
and i just need to sleep 
im so sick of always counting sheep 

i've been feeling so ill is this all in my thoughts? 
this feeling i get when i want you to rot 
for all the things and all the pain you caused 
if we see eachother we wont stop and stare 
yeah i'd rather you treat me like i wasn't there 
i dont hate you, but honey, this still hurts 
but i still have the things i've had from the start 
this pen in my pocket, [bad word] guitar 
and the courage to sing this pain away"