I crack my knuckles and let out a sigh
The rain falls, my face tilted towards the sky
You must be insane if you think I have forgotten
Not a night goes by that I don’t reflect
I’ll admit that not every memory is clear
But I don’t consider that a bad thing.

I can’t remember your voice,
It’s lost to me!
Everyday I see your face,
It’s a part of me!

I am not alone,
You have shown me the way!
The way not to be if I want to do more than watch TV.

How does it feel to be taken down a notch?
Don’t get me wrong, I miss you
I’m just not sure how much
The tears are welling up in anger
For all the things you didn’t do to stop the inevitable
Everyone saw [bad word] 
Everyone but you [bad word]  I’ll forever be
This name that I bear is not of my own
The rain can’t wash away the shame though it is soothing
There’s no avoiding that I reap what you’ve sewn
I stand before you today
Not a scholar nor a picture of perfect health
How am I to teach my unborn son to be a man when I have never learned myself?