This is the first day of my last days
  I built it up now I take it apart
  climbed up real high now fall down real far
  no need for me to stay
  the last thing left I just threw it away
  I put my faith in god and my [bad word] in you
  now there's nothing more [bad word] up I could do
  
  wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word]   wish there was something real in this world full of you
  
  i'm the one without a soul i'm the one with this big [bad word] hole
  no new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to [bad word]   gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist [bad word]   don't think you're having all the fun
  you know me I hate everyone
  
  wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word]   wish there was something real in this world full of you
  
  I want to but I can't turn back
  but I want to