do you remember
these black leaves of autumn 2010
that slept under the snow
with countless filters of the cigarettes we smoked
and maybe something important
already rotten like these leaves
i'm so cold
and all the names and words i cherished most
have melted down like this snow
i'm cold
do you remember

when was the last time i wished to get hit by a car,
to fall off a roof, to cut myself
to finally bleed dry
when was the last time my pain was stronger than me

do you remember
we were so careful
there were no promises to break
our hands just fell apart
and we forgot the simple meaning of that bond
and the very feeling that's already getting hard to describe
we closed our eyes
and learned how easy it is to just let go
let go
why in the world would we try harder

was that even real
all that pain all that weakness and sorrow
was that even me
i cant believe it

i pray for nothing
i pray for nothing
i pray for nothing
i pray for nothing 
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