Oh, won't you tell me? Please just tell me.

Explain how this should work.

Well now who could it be, that lives inside of me?
I'm broken, lying helpless, shattered
Surrounded by the world

And yet, you're smiling [bad word] blind to life
 [bad word] lungs; they were left this way
For once, I'm out of breath.
The [bad word] I seek, never felt so bleak but,
I maintain my depth 

Freeze

I'm breakable; 
Unbreakable
I'm shaking yet, 
Unshakable
Until the day that you find me.

I'll stand here,
Existing and feeling wretched* existence
Consuming life-force til I grow distant
Don't bother searching for somebody like me.
fading no one.
I don't want to hurt you, It's not my nature.
monster born from dusk to dawn can't be your saviour
Remember the 'me', the way I used to be.

As who I still should be.