It was [bad word]  The boy saw [bad word] and he felt as though his life had meaning. And when it went away, he waited his entire life for it [bad word] back to him. It was more than just [bad word] because of what it brought to his life: direction, beauty, meaning. There are many who couldn't understand, and sometimes he walked among them. But even in his darkest hours, he knew in his heart that someday it would return to him, and his world would be whole again... And his belief in God and love and art would be re-awakened in his heart. The boy saw [bad word] and suddenly his life had meaning.