Crying and hiding this feeling [bad word] and fighting for freedom

This is the last time, I???ll cry lullabies
All night can???t sleep I hear the floors creek
I feel shadows in my room
My friends find another [bad word] 
I???m a end up on the news
I just don???t know what to do
God I???m calling you
Send an angel send two
I want a move but I???m trapped in the outer room
I know you hear me clearly I???m weary [bad word] and fill me with your power heal me

It seems impossible for me to let this go
Feel like an animal, I???m ready to lose control
Take everything you need, take every part of me
Take every part of me give me some room to breathe

I got to get away
Got a break away
Save Me
Got to find away
Got to break the chains
Take me
Before I lose control
Before I lose control
It seems impossible
It???s not impossible

I???m tired so tired of walking through this fire
If you want to find me I???ll be here in my room
I???m thinking your drinking,
Need to get out before you start swinging
Wish I could show you all the pain inside me

It seems impossible
Crying and hiding this feeling [bad word] and hiding from freedom
For me to loose control
Crying and hiding this feeling [bad word] and hiding from freedom

I???m so tired a walking this line through the fire
If you want to find me I???m in my room retired
Hiding this feeling I???m thinking your drinking
Sinking deep ducking under your swinging, out [bad word] 
Living cold day???s hallways filled with the mistakes
Wish I could show you all the pain inside it???s caused me
It used to be a house, a home now it???s neither yo
So I???m leaving with the cross strapped to my soul