What do I do to ignore them behind me? 
Do I follow my instincts blindly? 
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams 
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? 
Do I / sit here and try to stand it? 
Or do I / try to catch them red - handed? 
Do I [bad word] some and get fooled by phoniness, 
Or do I [bad word] nobody and live in loneliness? 
Because I can't hold on / when I'm stretched so thin 
I make the right moves but I'm lost within 
I put on my daily façade but then 
I just end up getting hurt again 
By myself [myself] 
I ask why, but in my mind 
I find I can't rely on myself 

I can't hold on 
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin 
It's all too much to take in 
I can't hold on 
To anything watching everything spin 
With thoughts of failure sinking in 

If I 
Turn my back I'm defenseless 
And to go blindly seems senseless 
If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they'll 
Take from me 'till everything is gone 
If I let them go I'll be outdone 
But if I try to catch them I'll be [bad word] 
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer 
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer 
[by myself] 

How do you think / I've lost so much 
I'm so afraid / I'm out of touch 
How do you expect / I will know what to do 
When all I know / Is what you tell me to 

Don't you know 
I can't tell you how to make it go 
No matter what I do, how hard I try 
I can't seem to convince myself why 
I'm stuck on the outside "2X"

I can't hold on 
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin 
It's all too much to take in 
I can't hold on 
To anything watching everything spin 
With thoughts of failure sinking in "2X"