If it's okay 
I'll leave the bed light on 
And place your water glass where it belongs 
And if alright 
I'll lie awake at night 
Pretending i'm curled up at your side 

See i'm circling these patterns 
Living out of memories 
I'm still a long way from accepting it 
That there's just no you and me 

But if i still believe you love me 
Maybe i'll survive 
So i tell myself [bad word] home 
Like you've done a million times 
And if it's alright 
I'll still be loving you 
'cause i can't break it to my heart 

Is it just me 
Did [bad word] a crime 
I won't believe that loving you 
Is just a waste of time 
Or was it in my head 
I'm reading into things that you never said 

'cause i still don't have the answers 
To why we couldn't work it out 
I wanna think it's something that i did 
So i can turn it back around 

But if i still believe you love me 
Maybe i'll survive 
So i tell myself [bad word] home 
Like you've done a million times 
And if it's alright 
I'll still be loving you 
'cause i can't break it to my heart 

And nothing [bad word] between us 
I wanna convince myself we're perfect in 
Every single way as long as i can keep 
The [bad word] away from my heart 
Oh 'cause i can't break it to my heart 

'cause i still don't have all the answers 
To why we couldn't work it out 
I wanna think it's something that i did 
So i can turn it back around 

But if i still believe you love me 
Maybe i'll survive 
So i tell myself [bad word] home 
Like you've done a million times 
And if it's alright 
I'll still be loving you 
'cause i can't break it to my heart