Out of сontrol

I have copied you
and made up myself
So crash and splash
I fight
with my obsession.
I feel the tension,
a need for caution
I would like to show
Cut open my skull
Look into my head
I don't
know why I'm so harsh
I could be so brash
I'm going to clash
'cause I feel
I can always show my everything to you
If this moment was for me
I try to hear
Lend my ear
voices inside
one link to join it all
Again
All the things I knew,
the world I [bad word] 
would be the same
If I
remained inside my
protective castle
and kept my eyes closed
Words are just a toy
that people play with
it's superficial
I know
The proof is out there
The hidden answer
That someone left there
'cause I feel
I can always show my everything to you
If this moment was for me
I try to hear
Lend my ear
voices inside
one link to join it all
If I can
Go travel back in time
Start it all over again
Follow a calculated path to live but
One day I
 [bad word] across the same
feeling again and know that it will carry over
'cause I feel
I can always show my everything to you
If this moment was for me
I try to hear
Lend my ear
voices inside
one link to join it all
so it goes again