still miss u

lyrics:
you've got a lot of problems, i know
i've got a lot of fear in my heart
i'm frozen while i'm watching you go
knock on your door, asking "can we restart?"

and maybe it's an issue i'll fix
or maybe it's a permanent scar
but every time i hear the word "beauty"
i picture your hands when you're turning your car

and i know that i say this too much
but dammit this [bad word] isn't fair
you were the taste of my [bad word] 
i had you each morning and night i was there

you were the notes on my staff
you fit like a glove on my hand
you are the smile on my face
you are the beach to my sand

you make [bad word] 
you made [bad word] 
and now i feel defeated