"That Don't Make It Junk"

I fought against the bottle,
But I had to do it [bad word] –
Took my diamond to the pawnshop –
But that don’t make it junk.

I know that I’m forgiven,
But I don’t know how I know
I don’t [bad word] my inner feelings –
Inner [bad word] and go.

 [bad word] you called me here tonight?
 [bad word] you bother
With my heart at all?
You raise me up in grace,
Then you put me in a place,
Where I must fall.

Too late to fix another drink –
The lights are going out –
I’ll listen to the darkness sing –
I know what that’s about.

I tried to love you my way,
But I couldn’t make it hold.
So I closed the Book of Longing
And I do what I am told.

 [bad word] you called me here tonight?
 [bad word] you bother with my heart at all?
You raise me up in grace,
Then you put me in a place,
Where I must fall.

I fought against the bottle,
But I had to do it [bad word] –
Took my diamond to the pawnshop –
But that don’t make it junk.