You tell me what will [bad word] of us?
 Are the lines so drawn and the stage so set,
 That as we age what reamins is burdened sufferance?
 My mortality looms in its visage is doom,
 And it's speaking to me alone.
 The years will unfold but what is the use?
 In solitude I'm left to atone. 

 The sins of my past are returning to gnaw at my core,
 The scars I have left and those that have been left on me. 
 My purpose in life, is it unfair to assume I have one?
 I'm not fooling myself, what now awaits is a nightmarish end. 

 What I'm saying, do you understand?
 Do you know what it's like to feel inadequate?
 And the future ahead has no place for you,
 As if you ever thought it did...
 Alone in my shell, if [bad word] out I'll die,
 I don't want to escape though I should.
 No, just leave me alone, *I don't want your help!!*
 Yeah, if you could ease my pain you would... (right!) 

 No, you don't even know me!
 And your words [bad word] fall upon deaf and frightened ears,
 I lament my bitter fate, lachrymation upon examining my fears. 
 I've built a fortress around my soul, impregnable the door,
 I refuse to admit you to my netherworld.
 You're correct, I've absolved my self-control,
 This spiraled course depression has me on. 

 AGONY!
 I'M STUDY IN DESPAIR, DOMINEERED BY THE PROMISE OF AGONY!
 AND THE HAPPINESS IS BOUND, AND THE HOPELESSNESS IS FOUND. I'M IN AGONY!!!!
 CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND, [bad word] MY AGONY!
 and i'm waiting to die alone... 

 As I'm drowning in a sea of abused visions and shattered dreams,
 chilling descent into a phobic [bad word] 
 Insanity's blade performs it's correctional surgery.
 Impending doom in this blackened room, I can give this all away.
 It's all so easy to capitulate, Nothing is making me stay... 

 Retreating within and hiding behind my wall.
 Dealing without, there's no escape from this moribund state.
 Awaiting deep sleep, we don't care if I don't wake.
 In darkness' hands though terrified, I feel safe. 

 I don't fit into the scheme of things!
 These years as an outcast are quickly wearing thin.
 My carefree days are a thing of the past,
 And I [bad word] the fact that [bad word] to an end.
 Melancholy, my bride, I devote unto thee,
 My, breath, my mind and my soul.
 As silence washes over me, I've never been so tired, so cold... 

 Confusion seizes unto me, Manacled and beaten, chained up by it's frozen vice.
 This is killing me, but my mind is set, and I'm too weak to fight.
 Have you any idea what it's like to want to die?
 Then you will know from where I speak.
 This winter in my soul,
 This winter in my soul... 

 AGONY!
 I'M STUDY IN DESPAIR, DOMINEERED BY THE PROMISE OF AGONY!
 AND THE HAPPINESS IS BOUND, AND THE HOPELESSNESS IS FOUND.
 I'M IN AGONY!!!!
 CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND, [bad word] MY AGONY!
 and i want to be left alone... 

 Yet again, I have no answers,
 The confusion of my fate takes it's toll.
 Symbolically speaking, what's another life
 That lists "ending itself" as its one and only goal?
 I've examined my options and I see nothing in my sight,
 Is there an avenue I've yet to explore?
 As of now, I'm decided I have nothing to live for... 
 Defeated, alone, yet you laugh at the state I'm in!
 I can't help what I am, but you think this is all in my head.
 I'm not asking for help, but I want you to understand,
 That I'm going away, you guess if [bad word] back. 

 You wish I had a will to live? 
 This condition I'm in didn't happen overnight.
 I've hated myself for an eternity,
 Now I finally feel that I'm doing something right.
 As darkn