she is at the end chasing her own fading light  [bad word] from her shadow in the name of living 
searched for worth in the lust of men 
paid in blood in different beds 
mistaking  as [bad word] love 
they never meant a thing 
her addiction brought her a world 
of coward boys and of cheater girls 
looking for an easy way out of being ordinary 
so she boarded their sinking ship 
and crossed their red needle sea 
drowning [bad word] to live her lie 
that she was ordinary 
in her fading shadow