Lizard Skin

I reserve myself the right to protect, I
from intenions around,
I see a thousand faces
In no one but myself I [bad word] 
I don't get love or care from this world of pain
Made my skin turn to stone
Bending under this load, I fall, and my skin is...

My fall accelerates with the weight
Soon I'll be underworld
Surving radiations, not for long,
and I'm burning

Raging storm deep inside,
Unsuspected misery
Someone has betrayed my [bad word] 
Attempted suicide
My nerves tensed, hardened my skin [bad word] 
But I give my horse its head, I'll [bad word] [bad word]  meet, under my lizard skin

I research the way to cleave through the air
My attention span is too short
My envelope is too tight now
and my skin is...