It's frightening

How you can see the changes happening

When they move so fast

And lightning

Except the odds are growing

These lonely times will strike me twice

The screams of 1,000 voices

Are whispers inside my head

The echoes of self defense

So how many times will it take

To cover up the past mistakes

And hide behind a crying you face of shame

And how many nights will I hide

and blink under the blackened skies

I've cursed out so many times

Its biting

when the cold wind blows through weathered eyes

and blistered skin

it's quiet now

it's like the calm before the raging violence of the storm begins

and when [bad word] crashing down

I'll fall harder than before

I'll start this all over now

So how many times will it take

To cover up the past mistakes

And hide behind a crying face of shame

And how many nights will I hide

and blink under the blackened skies

I've cursed out so many times before

I'll beg for the ending or just for forgiveness

I'll wait in the shadows of a battle I'm close to losing

So how many times will it take

To cover up this smiling face of silence

This face of shame

And how many nights will I hide

and blink under the blackened skies

I've cursed out so many times before