Try, Scare, Lose, Waste

I'm trying to find myself, now I'm losing my [bad word] in what I've done
I've been so scared, I've been wasting all my time with all my fears

Everyday I try while loneliness is killing every middle of the night, while all the people looking for the self-control react
When everything is not the main solution to be free, while life of everyday is [bad word] (to find)
Some people are just made form love and hate at the same time thinking, "it's only a question of [bad word]  (the way)
Some people are just able to get harmony in the life, thinking 'it's only a question of lies"

Here, if something looks [bad word]  now I know how to fix it, what I've done is in my past, I can't erase or regret so I don't mind it
I lived with the fear of the world all around myself, now I know I must believe in what I do

Try again with me, try again to realize the dreams that you will never make alone, girl
Try again with me, try again with all that you can give and all that we can do
Nothing left to say, nothing left to lose if we start living everyday and every night, girl
Nothing to decode or to understand

I've been so scared, please help me, please help me