I [bad word] Again

Here again all by myself I'm pounding it all 
I can't recall those years before, before when I stood tall 
The days of glory in the past, haunting evermore 
The vision and the final dream are still behind the door 
Searching for the righteous course, I'm lost without a light 
I need a sign, I need it now, I'll never give up without a fight 

I [bad word] again 
With the power of my will 
I have seen the eyes of this world and I have seen it's thrill 
I [bad word] again 
Until then I'll get through 
Destination still unknown 
Direction straight ahead 

The story goes on and on, it's time to turn page 
I wish to find my final peace, without any rage 
And suddenly I see it all, I'm not alone anymore 
I need [bad word] but not to hide, I'm reaching for the door 

I [bad word] again 
With the power of my will 
I have seen the eyes of this world and I have seen it's thrill 
I [bad word] again 
Until then I'll get through 
Destination still unknown 
Direction straight ahead