There's nothing left

Can you see what I'm feeling?
I just hide in my hand
kanashimi ga itai yo
I wanna find the answers
Find the answers
Find the answers before I'm nothing
 [bad word] akashi ga hoshii  koko ni [bad word] yo

You see I'm finding a way
You see I'm finding a way
No reason to be alive now and nobody hears me
Don't leave me alone

nigemado'u dake no hibi dareka no nukumori o kari nagusame
gijiai sae wakaranaku natteyuku
It's the ugly duckling, the ugly duckling, the ugly duckling swimming in the lake
uchinomesare obietsudzuke itami sae mo ai mo asu mo mienai

 [bad word] ga akete asa ga [bad word] no"
KIMI wa itsumo sou itteita
asa ga kureba KIMI no kokoro mo ochitsuku kara
The darkness arrives and I see the light
It's just like the rain that beats my window
The lake is so calm, and I'm all alone
And someday
I'll be a beautiful swan

So until the day I fly
It will so many days to cry
But I will be forgetting how I die
We celebrate we're all alive

Will you
You'll know we want that one
You don't know
You don't know what I want
You just follow the others do
You don't know

kanashikute [bad word] kuyashikute kuzureta hibi mo
KIMI o [bad word] hitotsu no youso de KIMI ga [bad word] 
How loud I shout
How loud I cry
How sad I am
You will not get me
But I see the sky and someday
I might be something, So will you look at me for once?
For once
For once
Just once
The swan