[bad word] xannyphantom

I KEPT MYSELF TO MYSELF AND I NEVER ASKED FOR HELP 
I LOST MYSELF IN MYSELF I WAS TRAPPED WITHIN MY [bad word] 
ILL FIND MYSELF WITH YOUR HELP BUT IM STILL STUCK INSIDE MY SHELL 
I SAY FAREWELL TO MY DEMONS I GRADUATED, THEY'RE EXPELLED 
I LIE SO WELL THAT SOMETIMES I CAN BARELY TELL THE [bad word] 
YOU KNOW WHAT I DO WHEN IM BLANK INSIDE WITH NOTHING ELSE TO DO 
IT SCARES ME TOO, TO THINK THAT I COULD HAVE GOTTEN JOY FROM HURTING YOU 
BUT YOU STARE RIGHT THROUGH, AND SEE WHAT I THINK AND YOU LEARN THE WAY THAT I MOVE 
AND ITS HORRIBLE, AND BEAUTIFUL, THE WAY WE LOSE CONTROL WHEN 
WE'RE ALL ALONE AND ON OUR PHONES, I SWEAR YOU MAKE ME FEEL AT HOME 
LOVE CHOOSES US, WE DONT CHOOSE, YOU FOUND ME I WANT TO FIND YOU 
AND I KNOW HOW TO PROVE, THE WAY I FEEL, ITS NOT WHAT I SAY ITS WHAT I DO 

I TRIED TO HELP WITH WHAT WAS, AND WHAT STILL MAY BE THERE 
I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE PEACE, AND THE CONNECTION THAT WE SHARE 
I TRY TO FEEL OKAY FROM THE THINGS THAT TOOK ITS PLACE 
ITS BEEN WHILE, BUT WE'RE GROWN FROM THE THINGS THAT MADE US SHAPE 
WE'RE ONLY YOUNG, BUT WE'RE FREE FROM THE PLACES WE USED TO BE 
ITS ONLY START OF SOMETHING NEW, OF SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL WITH YOU 
I FEEL ALRIGHT TO KNOW ITS WAVE I COULD CALL HOME