[bad word]  [bad word] edgeofsanity

Thirty years have passed
since my dying day.
My life went to fast,
from birth to my decay.

 [bad word] of my body.
Abeyance in my grave.
Time has maimed my flesh,
I've addled in my cave.

Paralized...
By the morbid fact:
I'm alive...
But my skull is cracked!

I feel no aggrieve,
no smell of my putrid carcass.
Human aberration,
let me die again!