thousand twinkling lights in a September night sky 
makes a heart filled with void remembers the aching of a loss, five years ago.
and there you stood, just like a picture it seemed to me.
and there you stood, the wind had gripped your pail hair and also caught my heart.
and everything i didn't say echoes forever. 
you never saw how much you hurt me i guess. but then again,
thousand twinkling lights in an October night sky 
makes my heart slowly wander and stumbles across the aching of a loss, two years ago.
and the words as follow: "i can't help that i still miss those nights we spent speaking in silence"

i've been waiting so long for a moment when i don't feel this way.
i've been waiting for a moment when i no longer feel trapped inside this hollow body, when i'm at ease.
all this years i've told myself to wait for it.
maybe i feel better if i just wait for it.
whenever you're around i shut my eyes and wait for it.
i hope and wait, i just wait for it.
but what if the moment [bad word]  will i be left with all my thoughts?
what if i never can let go? will i ever get over you? will i ever?