"I Didn't Drink"

I never felt this kind of pain before
I never fought this kind of war before
I never set foot inside this bar before tonight

Bartender said, “Hey, how you doin’ man?
Are you payin’ cash, do you wanna start a tab?”
He laid down a napkin then he said, “What’ll you have tonight?
We’re half price til nine.”

Should I order beer or wine [bad word] or whiskey
Vodka, tequila, yeah what’s gonna get me
Peace of mind and a good night’s sleep
Give me a double shot on the rocks
Of the strongest help me out you got
I really don’t know, so pour me what you think
‘Cause until tonight I didn’t drink

She was my life, my love, my everything
She was my heart, my soul, my reason to breathe
 [bad word] that cancer that came and took her away from me
Left me in misery

Should I order beer or wine [bad word] or whiskey
Vodka, tequila, yeah what’s gonna get me
Peace of mind and a good night’s sleep
Give me a double shot on the rocks
Of the strongest help me out you got
I really don’t know, so pour me what you think
‘Cause until tonight, yeah before tonight,
Until tonight I didn’t drink.