Flypside - Happy Birthday

Happy birthday!
So make a wish!

[Verse 1] 
Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been 
would you have been a little angel? or an angel of sin? 
 [bad word] around, hanging with all the guys? 
or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes? 
paid for the murder befor they had determined the  
choosing our life over your life meant your death 
and you never got a chance to even open your eyes 
sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life? 
Would you have been a little genius, in love with math? 
Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad? 
would you have been a little rapper like your poppa the piper? 
would you have made me quit smoking by finding one of my lighters? 
I wonder about your skintone and shape of your nose 
and the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow 
I think about it every year, so I picked up a pen 
Happy birthday, I love you whoever you would have been 

 [bad word] x 2] 
Happy birthday 
What I thought was a dream 
make a wish 
was as real as it seemed 

I made a mistake 

[Verse 2] 
I got a million excuses, as to why you died 
and other people got their own reasons for homocide 
who's to say it would have worked 
and who's to say it wouldn't have 
I was young and [bad word]  but old enough to be a dad 
the fear of being my father has never disappeared 
I ponder it frequently while I'm sipping on my beer 
my vision of a family was artificial and fake 
so when it came time to create I made a mistake 
now you got a little brother, maybe it's really you 
maybe you really forgave us knowing we was confused 
maybe, every time that he smiles 
it's you proudly knowing that your father is doing the right thing now 
I never tell a woman what to do with her body 
but if she don't love children then we can't party 
I think about it every year so I picked up a pen 
Happy birthday, I love you whoever you would have been 

 [bad word] x 2] 
Happy birthday 
What I thought was a dream 
make a wish 
was as real as it seemed 

I made a mistake 

[repeat x2] 
from the heavens to the womb 
to the heavens again 
from the ending to the ending 
never got to begin 
maybe one day we can meet face to face 
in a place without time and space 
happy birthday 

 [bad word] x 2] 
Happy birthday 
What I thought was a dream 
make a wish 
was as real as it seemed 

I made a mistake