You're trying so hard 
to impress 
someone that you might never meet 
and you've got that faded sweatshirt that reminds you of me 
or him 
or something 
I'll grab my life by it's throat 
and I'll squeeze 
until it'll apologize 
and I've pushed 
everything aside 
'cause I've been 
way too busy waiting// 

So hold 
onto yourself 
'cause once it's gone 
it's for good// 

I've spent the start of each new year telling myself 
that I'm gonna get through it 
but I lack the drive and motivation 
or I just get way to [bad word] to do it 
so I'll smoke 
until my lungs tell me 
there's something else I really 
probably oughta [bad word] be doing 
and I've pushed everything aside 
'cause I've been 
way too busy waiting// 

So hold 
onto yourself 
'cause once it's gone 
it's for good// 

 [bad word] // 

In My Darkest Hours/ 
I Will Release My Light