V1 
All is won to lose again 
Gaining strength to use all up 
Winning battles to lose the war 
I can't smile falsely anymore 
Pretending life is full and dear 
Born of safety death I fear 
Fear to breath to be myself 


Why can't I stop this lie? 
Why can't I thought I try 
Tell me why, I tell lies 
Why can't I grow some heavy balls? 

V2 
Enraged I lay myself 
Down to her to do her will 
I grind my teeth I ask myself 
Where's the life the love the thrill? 
You suck the blood right out of me 
This isn't how it's meant to be 
shadow of the man I dreamt 



M8 
Boredom weighs on empty days 
Anger kills the waning will 
Anguish hangs like pointed fangs 
Grow them, grow them 
Grow them, grow them 
Grow them 

V3 
Not long now before I go into the dark infinite 
Don't want to kill myself no more 
I'm useless, weak, a [bad word] [bad word]  
Alky [bad word]  dependent mess 
I should be shot I should have less 
Last chance now to be a man 
So watch me grow these heavy balls 


Suck on mine, stuck on mine 
Suck on mine, suck em dry 
Suck on mine, Suck on mine 
Suck on my massive [bad word] balls 

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Boredom weighs empty days 
Anger kills weaning will 
Anguish hangs pointed fangs 
Fate is touched twisting guts 
Grow them big 
Not long now 'fore I go 
Into dark infinite 
Can't kill myself no more 
Useless weak [bad word] [bad word] 
Alky dependent mess 
Should be shot should have less 
Last chance to be a man 
Watch em grow big and bold 
Suck on my suck on my 
Suck on my suck on my 
Suck on my suck on my 
Suck on my suck on my 
Suck em dry