I keep talking to myself
As if there's no one else around
All these pretty pills can't help me
Find what can't be found
 
 Everything
 Went as planned
 I'll give up
 Mind will bend
 
 You can leave
 Me behind 
 You know,
 I won't mind
 

I swallow tears 
With a happy smile
There's little time 
To reconcile
 [bad word] away 
I fall apart 
It cannot end
It stops my heart

I swallow tears 
With a happy smile
And all I know is that you 
Can't help me
Can't help me

 
 I keep staring 
 At the ceiling
 Though I know
 That it looks bad
 
 Tired of old
 Familiar feeling
 Fighting voices
 In my head
 
 I [bad word]  From my conscience
 With no special 
 Place to hide
 
 I'm so tired
 Of reminding
 Myself
 Of what's right
 
 
 Everything
 Went as planned
 I'll give up
 Mind will bend
 
 You can leave
 Me behind 
 You know,
 I don't mind

I swallow tears 
With a happy smile
There's little time 
To reconcile
 [bad word] away 
I fall apart 
It cannot end
It stops my heart

I swallow tears 
With a happy smile
And all I know is that you 
Can't help me
Can't help me