Slave To The Parasites

pain worse than anything else
or maybe I'm dead, both trapped in a cage
Alone in my body now a shell deserted or is this the end of my age
 [bad word] into the bitter end
Is the thing's I cannot avoid
Drowning in a circle of [bad word] 
They won't let me exist on my own

 [bad word] 
Slave to the parasites
I can't get away
They won't leave me be
Slave to the parasites
Here [bad word] again
There is nowhere to hide

Seeing my life [bad word] 
I'm all alone
digging into my life
deadly thoughts

The night is fallen
I know they [bad word] around the bend
They use me as an experiment
which I don't understand

Crashed into the bitter end
Is the thing's I cannot avoid
drowning in a circle of [bad word] .
They won't let me exist on my own

 [bad word] 

They won't get me this time
I can hear [bad word] closer
I'm not afraid to die
But I'd rather die than someone control my mind

 [bad word]