The damage was done preemptively 
Blame the force of these memories 
Abstain all you want you can't shake your hold on me 

Though you won't call me -- you play it right 
Still my mind lingers in those nights 
And you don't have to try to twist that knife 

But if I look back I'll turn into a pillar of 
If I look back I'll turn into a pillar of 
If I look back I'll turn into a pillar of 
salt-- 

Not since the days of boys' tyranny 
Over my heart was I so weak 
Yet you see I would love to beg at your feet 

But if I look back I'll turn into a pillar of 
If I look back I'll turn into a pillar of 
If I look back I'll turn into a pillar of 
salt--