I never meant to hurt you I got lost in dreams, but please I couldnt bear to lose you. I was there, I was alone, I was there and Im never going back. stare at ceilings [bad word] your hand against this wall to hold back your tears. I place my hand inside yours, it never felt this cold. I can still hold onto those days before the tears washed traces away, and I am sorry I broke these pictures, but please dont push me away. I left that place. I could not survive. but I never meant to abandon you. and I can still feel your breath on my neck. so let your breath out, close your eyes, hold your hands out and say goodbye 

I held on for as long as I could to dreams that were my life and Im afraid I cant return. so ill try to slip away from reality