I used to look up at the clouds a lot.
If you stare at them long enough, they [bad word] things, you know. Ships, People, anything you want really. 

Aid, aid me I cannot resist myself
Guide my tongue and rise with me rebelled,
When all I've done deserves to be dispelled,
Give me courage to escape this [bad word] 

Aid, aid me I cannot do this myself,
Guide my hands and rise with me rebelled,
Cos' everything deserves to be dispelled,
Hold my hands, escape with me this 

Bright dreams, they are so striking,
and even frightening, they almost managed to mislead me,
They're just like lightnings, they're just like lightnings,
They flash and then they flee.
 [bad word] faith alone against the world,
From my mouth my future is unfold,
I'm afraid there's no more I can do,
Hold my hands and I will follow

Bright dreams, they are so striking, they are so striking,
they almost managed to mislead,
They're just like lightnings, they're just like lightnings,
They flash and then they
Flee, but I don't care, 
Cos' I will dare to face what I am scared of,
We're just like beggars,
Attracted to the glare.

I have spent my whole life scared. Frightened of things that could happen, might happen, might not happen. Finding myself awake at three in the morning.

I am scared, I am scared I am, I am scared

But you know what?

I am scared I am.

I sleep just fine.

There's a price to be paid for your sins,
There's nothing that you're capable of, except crying about your stupid and pointless life.

And you [bad word] what is left from your validity, you destroy yourself and vanish leaving no trace, ha-ha-ha.

And you ask God to help you, but God is not listening to those who proved themselves cowards and self-traitors, so you loose your last hope.

No! What if I die unknown? What if anyone doesn't remember me anymore? [bad word] on! No one cares about you even now, when you're alive. Miserable creep, that's who you are. Not even worth a second of sympathy. 

My hands are tied behind my back,
The shadow's trapped inside my heavy head,
I'm bare.

My eyes are shedding heavy tears,
So who's to say, that life could be unfair?
I'm bare.

Who are you carrying all those bricks for anyway? 
God? Is that it? God? 
Well I tell you let me give you a little inside information about God. 
God likes to watch. He's a prankster. Think about it. 
He gives man instincts. He gives you this extraordinary gift, and then what does He do, I swear for His own amusement, his own private, cosmic gag reel, He sets [bad word] in opposition. It's the goof of all time.
Look but don't touch. 
Touch, but don't taste. 
Taste, don't swallow. 
Ahaha. And while you're jumpin' from one foot to the next, what is he doing? He's laughin' His sick, [bad word]  [bad word] off! He's a tight [bad word]  He's a [bad word]  He's an absentee landlord! Worship that? NEVER! 
Why not? I'm here on the ground with my nose in it since the whole thing began. 
I've nurtured every sensation man's been inspired to have. 
I cared about what he wanted and I never judged him. 
Why? 
Because I never rejected him. 
In spite of all his imperfections, 
I'm a fan of man!

Cloudy eyes (I just wanna clear your eyes). Feel like I'm happy.
Spare your tears (I just wanna spare your tears). Feel like I'm happy.
Cold inside (I just want to clear your eyes). Feel like I'm happy.
Never smile (I just wanna see you smile). Feel like I'm happy.

Sirens and sounds of agony.

I will tide. Feel like I'm happy.
Was alive. It feels like...