Feeling the sun down on my face like fire.
I long for rain, yearning desire.
This mental drought renders me lethargic.
Oblivious to life. Left to starve.
This ordeal is my punishment.
Cursed to deny all my suffering for you.
No sign of virtue or depravity.
Sitting numb confounded by your lies.
As I drown in apathy, all I see is your face.
Behind this shameless smile
I hide contempt and regret for my actions.
The shadows of the past
veil my slumbering dreams and hide your face, myself.
As I drown in apathy, all I see is your face.
Behind your shameless smile you hide remorse.
Loathe and [bad word] 
I know that I am to blame.
But for the deeds I've done.
I only shrive myself.