this is the first day of my last days i built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down real far no need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away i put my faith in god and my [bad word] in you now there's nothing more [bad word] up i could do wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word] wish there was something real in this world full of you i'm the one without a soul i'm the one with this big [bad word] hole no new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to [bad word] gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist [bad word] don't think you're having all the fun you know me i hate everyone wish there was something real wish there was something [bad word] wish there was something real in this world full of you i want to but i can't turn back but i want to