I wove an intricate [bad word] 
riddled with traps and old lost hideaways..
and stayed there alone.
Convinced of my reasoning,
there is no place for me where I'd belong,
so this must be home.
Familiar [bad word]  
to shut off from everything that's out of mycontrol.

I don't want to be so closed,
hiding away from the world.
Making up reasons to fit the way I've been all along.

If I could go back and show myself all I was missing and figure a way to break through the shell,
I might not be standing here wondering where I've been for all these years.

I don't want to be so closed, hiding away from the world. Making up reasons to fit the way I've been all along.