Faint

i am
little bit of loneliness
a little bit of disregard
a handful [bad word] 
but i can't help the fact 
that everyone can see these scars
i am
what i want you to want
what i want you to feel
but it's like 
no matter what i do 
i can't convince you
to just believe this is real 
so i let go 
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here 
cause you're all i got

i am
a little bit insecure
a little unconfident
cause you don't understand 
i do what i can
but sometimes i don't make sense
i am
what you never want to say
but i've never had a doubt 
it's like no matter what i do
i can't convince you
for once just to hear me out 
so i let go 
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here 
cause you're all i got 

i can't feel
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored


no
hear me out now
you're gonna listen to me 
like it or not
right now