Shiawase No Shuuchaku

isogiashi de [bad word]  kuroari no mure [bad word] ga doko ni mukatte [bad word] no ka?

ORE wa omou. kono yo no shuuchaku wa
kotae no saki no kanashimi no hate
ORE wa yagate shinu? sore ga kowain ja nai?
hajimatta mono wa kanarazu owari ga [bad word] kara

soredemo shiawase wo motomete shimau no deshou.

naku koto no muzukashisa wo [bad word] onore no mazushiki kokoro wo [bad word] [bad word] ORE wa shiawase ni shuuchaku [bad word] 
itsuka wa egao mo [bad word] toki ga [bad word] deshou.

osanai koro wa tanoshikatta?
nagerareta gimonfu ga [bad word] [bad word] [bad word] ashiato sae mo miushinatte
hibi wo kurikaeshi tadoritsuku basho.
gimonfu no kotae mo dasenai mama de [bad word] mata shuuchaku e to [bad word]  

The Terminal of Happiness

swarm of black ants, walking at a fast pace
They are laughing, but where is it that they are headed for?
I think. The terminal of this world is
At the limits of the sorrow that's beyond the answers
Will I die soon? Isn't that scary?
Because things that began are necessarily waiting for the end
And yet, I suppose that I am wishing for happiness.
I know how hard it is to cry
I know how poor is my own heart
And I am clinging to happiness
Someday, I suppose that even smiling faces will die out.
Was my childhood happy?
The question marks that I have cast pierce deeply, deeply
I lose sight of even my footprints,
Repeating my everyday as I [bad word] on to that place.
And unable to find even the answers to my question marks
I start advancing towards the terminal again.