I need this to get me through
can't resist, don't want to
believe it, I know it's [bad word] can't beat it, don't want to try

(a perfect [bad word] 

there's more to me than you ever will know
down here where the rest of us fell
waste away, nothing left to show
while I'm in this perfect [bad word] 
obsession has begun
possessed by [bad word] how did I get so low
believe me no one knows
sometimes I can't hold on
and no one can help me
 [bad word] 
now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
I don't think I can make it through this
now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
the less I do the more it makes no sense

I'm walking pollution who's drained by delusions
on the verge of [bad word] 
I cave in to abduction
thin blood I'm bleeding 
my pulse won't stop racing
just as my heart explodes

no chance that I could win
too hard to not give in
I just don't feel the same
cause I'm the one to blame
sometimes I can't hold on
and no one can help me

now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
I don't think I can make it through this
now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
the less I do the more it makes no sense

I need this to be myself
it feels like I need some help
it's too late to save myself
or it's just in my head

now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
I don't think I can make it through this
now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
the less I do the more it makes no sense

now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
I don't think I can make it through this
now it's got a hold of me (hold of me)
the less I do the more it makes no sense