The weight of past generations lies upon my head and the burden of the future in my sight. 
Where do I begin now? You gave everything just to take away. My innocence robbed and forgetting what life was before. 
From this day forward, I can no longer view you the same. You showed me the [bad word] just to lose my [bad word]  How dare you take away my whole [bad word] life and make me worry for yours? 

I am no longer the son, I am on my own. I crave your love but I don’t want it. Can’t let you back in, you scare me. This house is filled with miserable strangers and my mind is cluttered with people I can’t remember. 
I beg and beg for you to stop but I know I’ll never get my family back. Who knows if you’ll be there in the morning? I embrace only for you to push away. Can someone teach me how to let someone love? 

My father’s tears in my hands. My mother’s embrace in my thoughts. My family falling apart. 

I miss you every [bad word] day!