This is my very own disease...

Wake up drenched in fear
Pounding of my brain
Might explode in time
This cold chill makes me tremble
Makes me tremble...

Could this be my life 
Is he just teasing me
I cannot close my eyes
Will the Reaper be waiting
This is my  own disease...

Burn it at both ends
What can I expect
Twisted from the stress
Validating these voices
These voises...

This is my very own disease!
This is my very own disease!
This is my very own disease!

Be that as it may
Take it for granted
And abuse ourselves and still
I am constantly fractured
I am fractured...

As I sit here fading
 [bad word] to fantasy
Keep the days replacing
My denial [bad word]  [bad word] ..

This is my very own disease!
This is my very own disease!
This is my very own disease!

Disease!
Disease!
Disease!

Caused by my neglect
This [bad word] full circle
Lost in my regret
Now don't be surprised
When I tell myself

I told you so! [12]

Just give my fear a name
Bent, cracked, numb, [bad word]  slave
Dreams that leave a stain
Can't escape such impressions
Such impressions...

This is my very own disease!
This is my very own disease!
This is my very own disease!

Disease!
Disease!
Disease!

I told you so! [4]