need this to get me through 
can't resist, don't want to 
believe it I know it's [bad word] 
can't beat it, don't want to try 

perfect [bad word]  

It's more to me than you ever will know 
down here where the rest of us fell 
waste away nothing left to show 
while I'm in this perfect [bad word] 

obsession has begun 
possessed by [bad word] 
how did I get so low 
believe me no one knows 
sometimes I can't hold on 
and no one can help me 

now it's got a hold of me 
I don't think I can make it through this 
now it's got a hold of me 
the less I do the more it makes no sense 

I'm walking pollution who's drained by delusions 
on the verge of [bad word] I cave in to abduction 
thin blood I'm bleeding my pulse won't stop racing 
just as my heart explodes 

no chance that I could win 
too hard to not give in 
I just don't feel the same 
cause I'm the one to blame 
sometimes I can't hold on 
and no one can help me 

now it's got a hold of me 
I don't think I can make it through this 
now it's got a hold of me 
the less I do the more it makes no sense 

I need this to be myself 
it feels like I need some help 
it's too late to save myself 
or it's just in my head 

now it's got a hold of me 
I don't think I can make it through this 
now it's got a hold of me 
the less I do the more it makes no sense 

now it's got a hold of me 
I don't think I can make it through this 
now it's got a hold of me 
the less I do the more it makes no sense