All work and no play makes me a dull boy... [x4]

Live in a secret... live in a lie
Live in a dark hole beneath the black sky
Live like a martyr and draw my last breath
Feel like an old man with a knife in my chest
Live like a chancey.. live like a thief
Hiding in a closet grinding my teeth
Sit in a small room with the walls closing in
Open the shutters but everything still

Payback!
For all the things I've done in my past
Payback!
For everything there are no take backs

I'm not the reason
It's not my fault
It's not my problem
I'm not the cause
I'm not your scapegoat
I'm not your god
I'm not your martyr
I'd leave you all
I'm not the reason
I'm not your scapegoat
It's not my fault
I'm not your god
It's not my problem
I'm not your martyr
I'm not the cause
I'd leave you all

All work and no play makes me a dull boy
Feel like a clown without my funny nose
Walk to the window break it out with my fist
Jump from the ceil and ill plunge to my death
You can be selfish whatever ya think
Throw back my pills and take a sip of my drink
Walk under the clouds
Walk under the trees
Always again covering me

Payback!
For all the things I've done in my past

I'm not the reason
It's not my fault
It's not my problem
I'm not the cause
I'm not your scapegoat
I'm not your god
I'm not your martyr
I'd leave you all
I'm not the reason
I'm not your scapegoat
It's not my fault
I'm not your god
It's not my problem
I'm not your martyr
I'm not the cause
I'd leave you all

Sunshine's gone
It's all gone
By the way just so you know
Always this is how I feel
By the way just so you know
Always everyday this is how I feel

I'm not the reason
It's not my fault
It's not my problem
I'm not the cause
I'm not your scapegoat (I'm not your scapegoat)
I'm not your god (I'm not your god)
I'm not your martyr (I'm not your martyr)
This is how I feel (this is how I feel)

By the way just so you know
Always everyday this is how I feel