[Verse 1: [bad word] 
This pain inside of me is so pure that it's hard to ignore
I start to suffocate myself to block out all of my thoughts
I'm waking up to medication, fall asleep to medication
Just can't seem to stop my concentration (SHUT UP)
 [bad word] it, I'm sick of myself
All the [bad word] just keeps on following me
And swallowing me, right after the lobotomy
There's nothing left inside of me
I'm just [bad word] hiding me and trying to numb the pain

Pill after pill after pill everyday
Blowing all my money, so I can liquefy my liver
Blazing up the weed, even though I don't smoke
Trying sleep but I can't sleep so back to medication

I don't even know if I want to live or die
Laying on the floor feeling like I want to fly
So I can see my dad for the very first time
Would he even want to see me?
Just because I'm "that guy"

[Hook: [bad word] 
I want to overdose, it's just so easy to die
I want to get outside of me, and really feel alive