[Verse 1]
As I, fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene
to recieve the [bad word] addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to grab a take to the bottle of Nyquill
then I salivate
Start off with a Nyquill, like "I think I'll just
have a taste"
Couple of sips of that, then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription [bad word] called
Valium, like yeah that's great
I go to just take one, and I end up like having eight
Now I need something in my stomach
'cause I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and
I'll have a steak
And you'd think that with all I have at stake
Look at my daughters face, "Mommy,
something is wrong with Dad, I think!
He's acting weird again, he's really
beginning to scare me
Won't shave his beard again, and he
pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat doritos and
cheetos and he just
Fell asleep in his car readin' three
musketeers in the rear seat"
 [bad word] 
Sometime's I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something
takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna
get away from this place I do
But I can't, and I won't, say I try, but 
I know, that's a lie, 'cause I don't
And why I just don't know

[Verse 2]
Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?
That's the devil in my ear, I've been
sober a [bad word]  year
And that [bad word] still talks to me, he's
all I can [bad word]  hear
Marshall cmon' we'll watch the 
game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers
And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half
buzzed for half of the time
Who's the mastermind behind that little line
With that kinda rationale, man I got half a mind
To have another half a glass of wine,
sounds asinine
Yeah I know, But I never had 
no problem with alcohol
Ouch look out for the wall, aim 
for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall
I missed the couch and down I go
lookin' like a bouncing ball [bad word] musta knocked me out, 'cause
I ain't feel the ground at all
Wow, what the [bad word] happened last night,
where am I?
Man, [bad word] am I hungover, and god [bad word] I
Got a headache, should have a vicodin? Why can't I
All systems ready for takeoff, please standbye
 [bad word] 
Sometime's I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get 
away from this place I do
But I can't, and I won't, say I try, but 
I know, that's a lie, 'cause I don't
And why I just don't know

[Verse 3]
So I take a vicodin splash, it hit's
my stomach then *Ahh*
Couple of weeks go by, it ain't even
like I'm gettin' high
Now I need it to just not to feel sick,
yeah I'm gettin' by
Wouldn't even be taking this [bad word] if DeShaun didn't die
Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you
lose Proof so you use
There's [bad word]  it's cool if it's
helping you to get through
It's 12 noon, ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze
What else is new, [bad word] it, what would
Elvis do in your shoes
Now here I am 3 months later, full blown relapse
Just get high until the kids get home
from school holmes relax
And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
I need these pills to be able 
to sleep, so I take 3 naps
Just to be able to function throughout the day
Let's see, that's an ambien each nap,
how many valium, 3?
And that will average out to about
one good hours sleep
Ok so now ya see, the reason [bad word] he
Has tak